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“Who loves you?” I ask.
My daughter looks away. Doesn’t answer. I lean down and turn her to face me, resting my thumb in the dimple in her chin. It’s the same dimple her mother has. Or had.
“You love me, Daddy.”
“That’s right, so please listen closely,” I say. She’s only nine, but Anya’s eyes are flat and black and hard to read in the dim light of the cave. “Only you can make our family whole again.”
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“But. Last time. I saw . . .”
“I know. I know what you saw,” I speak over her. “That was an accident, honey. Daddy thought of a bad thing. But you’re so much sweeter than Daddy. You’ll only think of good things.”
The wounds across the back of my thighs are still weeping pus. The thing we saw—it shouldn’t exist. Not in her world. Only in my nightmares.
My daughter is shaking now, teeth chattering. Silent tears forge grimy streams down her cheeks. She is trying so hard to make herself stop. She cups a tiny hand over her mouth, as if she can force the sobs back inside. Her eyes are locked on mine, while I patiently smile back.
“It’ll be okay,” I reassure her. “Daddy can’t go near the crystal. It does bad things when adults are near. But you can do it. Anya. Listen to me now. I need you to put your hand on the crystal and think of your mommy. Find the mommy who is the most like your mommy. Pull her from one of the other places.”
“How will I know?”
I glance around at the slick walls of the cavern. The remains of our campsite are scattered around us in shambles. Our bright red tent is collapsed like a deflated lung. Four ragged lines rend the advanced fabric.
I woke from a nightmare to the stench of rotten meat. The thing was perched on my chest, bristling with stiff hair and skittering on sharp legs—a vicious insect the size of a soccer ball. This time, I was ready with my hatchet. But I wasn’t prepared at all for its eyes. They were human eyes. It fucking had human eyes and when I killed it, they were crying real tears—
Beyond the sliced gaps of the tent, I see my daughter’s pink camouflage sleeping bag.
I push down the memories of last night and reach into the tent, pawing around until I feel soft fur. It’s her favorite stuffed animal. A gift for her first birthday. I bought it at the Frankfurt airport on my way home from a war zone. I named it Nestor, after the old Argonaut who gave such sage advice.
Being a child, Anya took to calling it “Nester.” And that naivety is what I’m counting on. A mind so young and full of fairy dust and sunshine. Dreaming about bunnies who nest.
No evil thoughts. Nothing to fear from the crystalline depths.
I firmly press the bunny against my daughter’s chest. Wrap her cold, clammy fingers around its soft neck. Both our hands are swollen and sore from the bone-numbing chill down here. We don’t have much time.
I lift the bunny up against her snot-streaked upper lip.
“Hold onto Nestor,” I say. “Smell him. He smells like Mommy, doesn’t he?”
“Yes.”
“When you touch the crystal, close your eyes. And when you smell this smell, concentrate. Bring mommy back to us. Then we’ll be a family again. Okay?”
“Okay, Daddy.”
“Good. It’s time to go.”
Anya doesn’t move.
I wrap her up in a tight hug, feeling her delicate ribs under a torn, muddy jacket. The childish owl-shaped headlamp perched on her forehead spears two fingers of light into the cavern. Her breath plumes like car exhaust on a cold morning.
“Go,” I urge. “Now. Don’t make me count to three.”
It has to be this way, I tell myself. Anya is the only one of us who can do this.
Rainbow boots scuffing hard rock, she takes a few steps. And a few more. I cross my arms and watch my daughter’s faint form disappear into the darkness. She’s got the stuffed bunny in a chokehold under one elbow. As I lose sight of her, I can still hear her breath shuddering in and out.
• • • •
The whole thing was supposed to be a vacation. My work in private security takes me all over the world. Great money, exotic locations, but long stretches of time away from home. My wife Hannah wasn’t happy. Anya hardly recognized me.
Between jobs, I arranged a family camping trip.
We live in the Pacific Northwest, so naturally—it rained. I set us out walking through damp woods, stomping over glistening ferns in a cathedral of towering Douglas firs. We stopped for the night at a liminal elevation where mist enveloped the snaggled mossy branches just a hundred yards up the slope. Hannah told me the woods felt magical.
I laughed and shook my head, wet and miserable.
During the night, I woke to a far-off, titanic groaning as the damp earth shifted beneath us. Our tent moved a few inches. Nobody else stirred. And the next day, it was there—the yawning, mossy mouth of a cave. A thousand tons of wet, soft dirt had displaced, ripping a hole in the hillside before us. The opening was made of flat, bare rock. Like a welcome mat.
I pulled on my headlamp. I only meant to peek inside.
“Wow,” said Hannah. We stood together in the opening, smelling the earthy air seeping from the depths of the cavern. I strained my ears, thinking I could hear a whooshing from inside. But where I expected sound, only a dense silence pressed in, seeming to compress my thoughts into a sluggish stupor.
I took my wife and daughter by the hands and pulled them inside.
“We don’t have the right shoes for this,” said Hannah. “It could be unstable. Anya is too little.”
All the usual complaints stopped when we noticed the glimmer.
“Is that light in there?” she asked.
“Maybe there’s another opening?” I suggested.
“How? It goes straight into the hillside.”
Hannah frowned and refused to keep going. So, I picked up Anya and put her on my hip, walking toward the light. The glare of my headlamp threw tortured shadows from jagged rock walls. I noticed then that the cave floor was warped under our feet. As if it had been turned molten and then cooled. Odd.
“Mama?” my daughter called.
Shadows leapt as Hannah’s headlamp clicked on behind me. I heard her footsteps echoing as she rushed to catch up. But by then I was already too close to the thing. The pulling had already begun.
“Are these footprints?” I asked, setting my daughter down so I could kneel and inspect marks on the floor.
“Jesus, I hope not,” said Hannah. “What could make a print like that? And in solid rock?”
I splayed my fingers and pushed my palm against cool stone, my entire hand well within the outline of a paw-shaped indentation. There were seven digits, and deep gouges at the tip of each. Claw points.
The glow was brighter ahead, dimming and growing.
“I want to go back,” said Anya.
“Hush,” I said, turning to Hannah. “Turn out your light.”
“Honey—”
“Just do it!”
My shout echoed in dizzying reverberations. The light silently clicked out. I reached up and turned mine off as well.
Hannah’s eyes adjusted first. She made a sound like a hurt animal, murmuring in awe at the beauty of the thing. I saw her hips silhouetted by the crystalline phosphorescence, canted, one arm around our daughter’s shoulder.
“Don’t touch it,” she whispered. “It’s been here for millions of years. We don’t want to disturb it.”
The crystal was there, visible now under its own light.
It rose from the center of the room, forming a natural pedestal of its own. The structure was oddly symmetric, almost man-made. The top of it formed a pale, milky sphere. But not quite a true sphere.
I don’t remember walking closer.
As I leaned over it, I saw the crystal was made of so many facets. Each flat plane drew the eye in, resolving into reeling billions of smaller facets, all rising up and seeming to swirl together in my vision. It felt like falling into a fractal—some kind of natural locus point between all of everything.
So many facets. Like the glint of light from a wasp’s eye, I thought.
“Oh my god,” I breathed.
Inside the facets, I thought I saw something moving. Not my own reflection, but the vagaries of my imagination. I blinked my eyes clear and bore witness to an infinite number of reflections of my own face, blinking back.
Except none of them were me exactly.
Some of the faces were kind, others were cruel. Some were scarred, hideous, and others ethereally beautiful. I saw these men wrapped in bizarre technologies and deformities, horrors and dreams, wracked with disease and dripping with gold and gemstones. And somehow, I knew with absolute certainty that they were all me. We all of us were the exact same man, expressed through different worlds.
The crystal was a conduit. It was a nexus point for all the versions of our reality that had ever been. All those wondrous possibilities were lurking out there beyond a cloudy veil. And at that thought, a thrill of raw adrenaline raced through me. This could be the most valuable artifact ever discovered. My curiosity and fear collapsed together into a kind of giddy greed—a desperate need to secure this object, to make it mine and protect it from others.
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